Thursday, August 09, 2007

Saving Grace

Sean at Doc In The Box has just announced something that completely breaks my heart. It also scares the shit outta me, as I see in myself some of the warning signs and odd things his wife has been doing lately. Also, my DH is telling me, begging me, that we're going to be ok, he wants to work on this, he wants me to stay... I've been much worse off than I let on here. I've been so deeply depressed that DH asked me today if I even had anything invested in our marriage.
Sean, if it's any consolation, your posts have given me a swift kick in the rear, the fear of real failure, whatever you want to call it. I'm not going to give up on my marriage. I have an illness. It is not me. I will not let it take over my life and ruin it. I can get through this. DH has seen me at my worst, my darkest, my meanest, and he still wants to be with me.
I'm not going to let that slip through my fingers.
I'm sorry, Sean, but thank you. Thank you for helping me save my marriage.

2 comments:

Sean Dustman said...

The warning signs are there, it's something you need to work on in your own mind. That post was a warning that it could happen to anybody. Find that job and make your life more then just the marriage so the both of you can come into this as equal partners. If your relationship is missing one of you out of it, the whole will wither away and die. The military offers a lot of free services as far as counselling though the family service center, chaplin and military one source. I wish I had used a few more earlier:( Glad I was able to help.

The Bobo Knitter said...

Hang in there. All things worth having are worth work dear.