Second Time Around

Airforcewife's post at SpouseBuzz is a great one! I recently saw a scene quite like that on my own post. Yesterday I even met my neighbor two doors down by letting her borrow my jumper cables and sharing stories of perfectly good cars that have phantom problems that disable them from time to time--her Mustang, my old Firebird. (I miss that car.)
Now for the point of the post...
I was going to blog about that yesterday (jumping Mary's car) but I managed to land myself in the hospital for the second time this month, both for suicidal ideation. This time I didn't even see a medical doctor, never mind the psychiatrist. Apparently the computer "kicked [me] out of the system", according to a nurse. For both visits, by the time I get entered into the system, have blood and urine stolen from me, go through 20 (hundred) questions and actually see anyone, I've cooled down and am not suicidal in the least anymore, but damn cold and ready to go home and warm up if nothing else. Perhaps it's their strategy. Hopefully I won't be back at all, as this is stressing both me and DH to a breaking point. I land in the ER because I can't stay home, feel trapped, want to die, don't know what to do, etc, and then I don't get any help until I decide to go back home anyway. Scratch that option off the list.
So now I have to figure out what to do when I feel trapped and can't be around DH for his own safety. He has at least a little bit of the same problem I do, and finally promised to get an appointment for that, so if we agree on something while we're both rational and loving, he's more apt to forget or decide not to keep to the agreement when we're fighting.